Did you know that nostalgia was once considered as an illness ? Yep, I just checked Wikipedia(BTW, Wiki, You Rock !). Anyway, I find myself thinking of how things used to be. Am I too young to think that ? I don't know, kids grow up fast, don't they ?
I know "living in the moment" is what I am supposed to do, but when the past seems better, the current moment just sucks.
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We shifted from Delhi to Bangalore around the year 2000. That meant a new place, a new home, new friends and the most important of all, a new school. I was in 2nd standard then and I had to leave my old school in the middle of the year.
I remember walking in to my second standard classroom in the new school. Everything seemed so epic. The teacher announced, "Drawing time." and every one of us broke out into a cheer. See what I mean ? Epic. My section got changed the next day and I had to walk in to a different classroom the following day. I was excited because a childhood friend of mine was in the same section. She was kind of my guide for the following week. She would help me through almost everything in school. From homework to mocking me when the teacher gave me punishment. I used to hang out with her all the time. It was a cute little time.
I did manage to make new friends, but not any close ones. Except for her of course. I managed to finish the year and made it to third standard without a hitch.
Fast-forward to eleventh standard. I and her had drifted apart. We were in the same section till 10th standard. And yet, I couldn't put my finger on where I went wrong. I had systematically lost a friend and in the process failed to make any more close friends.
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For what it's worth, I tried to be on the "good list" of everyone in class, and even the teachers. Biggest blunder I made and I figured school just doesn't work that way. Yes, I managed to be on the "good list" of most and it made me feel happy then. It was like eating a piece of chocolate when someone gave attention to you because of something good you did. Because of this, I couldn't be close to anyone. I was just on good terms with everyone.
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I'd push nostalgia to be considered as an illness again.
Would you ?
I know "living in the moment" is what I am supposed to do, but when the past seems better, the current moment just sucks.
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We shifted from Delhi to Bangalore around the year 2000. That meant a new place, a new home, new friends and the most important of all, a new school. I was in 2nd standard then and I had to leave my old school in the middle of the year.
I remember walking in to my second standard classroom in the new school. Everything seemed so epic. The teacher announced, "Drawing time." and every one of us broke out into a cheer. See what I mean ? Epic. My section got changed the next day and I had to walk in to a different classroom the following day. I was excited because a childhood friend of mine was in the same section. She was kind of my guide for the following week. She would help me through almost everything in school. From homework to mocking me when the teacher gave me punishment. I used to hang out with her all the time. It was a cute little time.
I did manage to make new friends, but not any close ones. Except for her of course. I managed to finish the year and made it to third standard without a hitch.
Fast-forward to eleventh standard. I and her had drifted apart. We were in the same section till 10th standard. And yet, I couldn't put my finger on where I went wrong. I had systematically lost a friend and in the process failed to make any more close friends.
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For what it's worth, I tried to be on the "good list" of everyone in class, and even the teachers. Biggest blunder I made and I figured school just doesn't work that way. Yes, I managed to be on the "good list" of most and it made me feel happy then. It was like eating a piece of chocolate when someone gave attention to you because of something good you did. Because of this, I couldn't be close to anyone. I was just on good terms with everyone.
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I'd push nostalgia to be considered as an illness again.
Would you ?
Very nice one Nithish...Liked this Article a lot... -Ramya
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